A Ticking Time Bomb Ready to Explode

I'm starting to worry my violence against women class is effecting me on a deeper level. I had a nightmare last night where I was raped some other people were there watching. When I tried to go and tell someone about it people were covering it up and then other people didn't believe me.

I keep having flashbacks and feeling somewhat numb to other things going on around me. I want to talk to someone about what's going on and what I've been through; I've never fully disclosed to anyone. It just seems like so much to just unload on one person and I feel like I can't do that. Telling Paul just doesn't feel like an option to me. I'm scared he'd just start looking at me like I'm only a victim. I just don't know who to talk to everyone seems just as busy as me these days.

Listening to: "Pony (It's OK)" by Erin McCarley

Quote of the Day: "The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer someone else up." -Mark Twain