Love is All Around Us

These days it seems everywhere I look I see happy couples young and old who look absolutely inlove with each other. It has caused me to pause and take a moment to look back at my own history in relationships and reasses the things that worked and didn't. I've also been taking an inward look at the relationship I'm in now and making sure I'm not repeating history and making similar mistakes.

Looking back on the past I think I used to be so childish/naive and selfish about love. I expected it and felt like I was deserving of it because I was with someone, but it's something that you have to earn by doing and being a good person. Love doesn't come easy nor does it seem to come cheap. I don't mean cheap as in a monetary thing I mean it in the sense of giving your heart and time to another person and not expecting anything back.

I will admit it's hard to put yourself out like that and then turn around and ask for nothing in return from that person. If you think about it though it's your choice to do what you do in terms of your own heart and who you give it to. The person you gave it to didn't hold a gun to your head and demand that you rip it out of your chest for them. Everyone decides who they want to love and no one makes that choice for them.

I also think it's rather selfish to say those three words that we expect so much of and then turn around and insist the upon the other person to say them right then and there. For me I'd rather be given the chance to say them when it feels right for me, and the time I decide to could be the same moment or not.

With love what's always scared me is admitting my feelings at exactly the wrong moment and just ruining everything that I had worked so hard to accomplish. That to me is the ultimate failure; giving your heart to someone and before they are ready to allow themselves to accept something of that degree scaring them off.

We make so much of this four lettered word it makes it almost impossible to be the first person to say it. As a girl it's almost as if you're obsessive if you say it first and maybe for guys it's a showing of weakness or being whipped by the girl and so they don't want to be the first. Maybe if we as a society weren't so afraid of such a wonderful word as love we'd be better off. To me it seems we are such a backwards group of people fearing something so wonderful and not being free to express it as we openly feel it.

Maybe it's time we turned our world upside down and took a chance and jumped off the edge and told those around us that we love them. What if there were no more tomorrows or chances for us to tell someone we appreciated them and today was your last chance. Who would you want to say those three small words to and let them know that without them your life might not have been the same?


Listening to: "Vindicated" -Dashboard Confessionals